Where to start...

I don't even know where to begin with this post.

This is what was suppose to happen


Friday swim - TCR class is off so some of us from class are meeting up at the Churchill pool.
Saturday - 1000m swim test! I'm hoping I can come in anywhere close to Susi's Rock Star time! My last 1000m test was before I started swimming with Syl so I'm hoping that it's better then the 24:00 from last time. I'm heading out snowshoeing with some friends Saturday afternoon.
Sunday - Yoga, weights and bike. I have to take my pedals in to Cyclepath the right side doesn't want to clip in anymore and I have to press in really hard to clip in and getting out is sticky too. I don't want to pull a Chuck when I get out on the road!
Monday - Off day, I'll probably head in to do some weights. I also have to sort out my condo this weekend to get it ready to put on the market by the end of the month!
This is what ended up happening

Friday - Never heard from TCR group instead went to Talisman on my own. Since the pool was set to 50m I decided that this would be as good a time as any to do my 1000m swim test. I warmed up with about 400m to start and then went into the test. The last time I did this test I could barely make the 1000m I was exhausted by the end and hated every bloody second of it. I ended up doing it in over 24 minutes and collapsed at the end. The good news is that I finished this one feeling like I could keep going! I still don't know how to do flip turns which would probably help with my time this round. I thought I was going to break 20min but ended up doing it in 20.45. I was super annoyed for the first 5min in the hot TUB but after thinking about how far I've come with my swimming in the past few months I realized that that was a pretty respectable time. I just have to work on those darn flip turns!

Saturday - I wasn't super eager to get back into the pool Saturday morning. Instead I made banana chocolate chip pancakes and headed out for our snow shoeing trip. I turned off my cell phone and just had some fun with the girls. It was a absolutely beautiful day, one that made me realize just how much I'm going to miss these mountains. I stayed for dinner with some girlfriend and had to leave early. Recently I find that I'm almost like a robot. When I'm tired it's almost like someone turns the key in my back and shuts me down.

Sunday - I don't really know where to start with Sunday. It was suppose to be yoga, weights and bike before 2pm where I was meeting my Mother and Niece to see Beauty and the Beast. What ended up happening is much messier. I'll keep it to the Coles Notes version since it's not really about training but is greatly affecting my training at the moment. My Father left my Mother a little over a month ago, he told her it was because he was unhappy. He told my Brother and I he had met someone else and was madly in love after 6 weeks. For the past month I've been stressed out over my Mother finding out. Well that shoe dropped sometime Saturday afternoon. Now Mom's a wreak, my brother doesn't know how to function and my sister is inviting everyone over for Easter Brunch trying to pretend it's not happening. Basically we all don't know which way is up right now. I tried to speak to my Father on Sunday night but when I pull up at my Grandmother's house (she's away and he's been living there) I see this other woman's purse and shoes in the doorway and I panic. Like seeing stars, can't breath, my HR goes from what feels like well over the 200 mark to 50 beats per minute in a second feel like I'm dying lay down on the driveway for 20 minutes before I can regain my feet sorta thing. I called my Father to try to speak with him without his girlfriend there and he refuses. The conversation went downhill from there ending with me in tears on the side of the road after he hung up on me and I haven't heard from him since nor do I really expect to. Needless to say there wasn't much of a work out happening on Sunday. So if your counting I'm dealing with the following this summer, quitting my job, going back to school, selling my condo, moving to another province, training for Ironman and now my father abandoning me. If this sounds flippant I don't mean it to I'm devastated and can really only get through the day if I think about it factually instead of emotionally.

Monday - I had told myself I would do my bike on Monday to make up for missing it on Sunday. Sadly this didn't happen either. I did get a far as cleaning out my pantry which given the circumstance I saw as a huge success. I was also happy because I had plans to meet the lovely and amazing Susi in real life. I was so happy for this distraction from my life and she is even more lovely in real life as she is through her blog. She have me lots of hope that I can conquer my fear of open water swims too!

Which brings you up to speed. So if I'm not around as much as usual it's not because I'm not doing my workouts I'm just trying to remember how to breath and keep my head above water right now. It's times like that that when I'm lucky to have something as positive in my life as IM training.

Today I'm suppose to go for a 90 min run I might switch Tuesday's long run for Thursday's short run. I'm going to head out after work and run until the stress of the day are lifted off and if anyone asks my eyes are this puffy from the goggles, that's my story and I'm sticking to it!